I am in the process of leaving my present company for higher studies.So a bit of packing keeps happening everyday and I also do a lot of salvaging of my old stuff too. In the course of this, I managed to rummage a couple of my old college-time diaries and chanced upon a very dismaying entry.
Those days we were struggling to convince a friend who'd been constantly failing in all his campus interviews that he is a very capable individual and that temporary failures are just that, temporary. We kept telling him that he should continue his efforts with the same concentration even now and with the firm belief that success would eventually be his.
But that friend, though highly God-fearing and very religious, was so pessimistic about all his outcomes that sometimes I thought maybe Lady Luck herself was too scared to come near him. He made us sick talking about how badly prepared he was for the interview and how horrible his "kismet" was and how pathetic his performance would be. Never did I hear him saying that he was hopeful of getting through or that he was so sure of an excellent result, even though he would have solved all the questions in half the time, correctly.
I used to wonder why some people are like that, why they can't accept their strengths, take confidence from them and just work it all up to a tangible positive result. I used to see people pray to God obliviously and ask Him for help but could never trust Him enough to actually do what He says, to actually take that risk and wait to see the final consequence.
Personally speaking, there have been so many occasions in my life when I could do nothing but believe that there IS a God, that He is there for me anytime I need him and that if I just do my stuff and entrust the remaining to him, He leaves no stones unturned to get things in place. I don't see God as just Lord Ganpati or Lord Shiva, I don't visualize him as only Durga maa or Lord Jesus for that matter. For me, God is that Supreme Being, that scientific principle, that cosmic power which creates, sustains and destroys anything and everything around me.
For me, God has more to do with my faith than my religion, God is more of a consistent companion and guide than someone who's just carved in stone and adorned with flowers and who is worshipped every morning and sunset. In fact, had it not be been for this aenoian belief in that Heavenly entity, I doubt if I would have been able to sanely survive the different circumstances and situations that this short lil life has thrown my way. I guess that since my faith has never betrayed me till this day so maybe that is the reason I fail to see why other people can't believe in Him enough.
But then, aren't there too many instances of God being around for us not to accept His existence? And haven't there been enough folklores and tales talking of how someone suffered for lack of devotion to drive the point home? Or are these tales considered mere figments of imagination? I hope not coz I can't imagine a person just striving on and on, without a little bit of feeling that there's someone to take care if things get awfully out of hand.
And mind you, I am not talking of the strong-minded atheists who have a couldn't-care-less kinda attitude, who just go out there and get everything for all its worth, who spend all their lives getting their dues by sheer hard work or luck maybe, but who've seldom felt a need to shiver in anticipation or feel depressed or shed a tear on some unachieved feat. Either they are too powerful or they are too carefree. They might definitely survive but wouldn't they be just a handful?
But what I am seeing is a normal individual with a very normal level of self-confidence, a person who is not going that extra mile without a heart-felt assurance that he would be protected from unforeseen consequences and that he would continue to live with no big loss, in one piece if nothing else, I am talking of a person very much like me, very much like the millions breathing around. A simple belief in the existence of that Supreme power can serve to assuage all pains and miseries, can serve to add that shock-absorber to make things a lil lighter to bear and can give that lil extra push to make the going a lil easier.
Don't many of us feel the same and acknowledge that Divine presence in our lives? I would like to think so.
Those days we were struggling to convince a friend who'd been constantly failing in all his campus interviews that he is a very capable individual and that temporary failures are just that, temporary. We kept telling him that he should continue his efforts with the same concentration even now and with the firm belief that success would eventually be his.
But that friend, though highly God-fearing and very religious, was so pessimistic about all his outcomes that sometimes I thought maybe Lady Luck herself was too scared to come near him. He made us sick talking about how badly prepared he was for the interview and how horrible his "kismet" was and how pathetic his performance would be. Never did I hear him saying that he was hopeful of getting through or that he was so sure of an excellent result, even though he would have solved all the questions in half the time, correctly.
I used to wonder why some people are like that, why they can't accept their strengths, take confidence from them and just work it all up to a tangible positive result. I used to see people pray to God obliviously and ask Him for help but could never trust Him enough to actually do what He says, to actually take that risk and wait to see the final consequence.
Personally speaking, there have been so many occasions in my life when I could do nothing but believe that there IS a God, that He is there for me anytime I need him and that if I just do my stuff and entrust the remaining to him, He leaves no stones unturned to get things in place. I don't see God as just Lord Ganpati or Lord Shiva, I don't visualize him as only Durga maa or Lord Jesus for that matter. For me, God is that Supreme Being, that scientific principle, that cosmic power which creates, sustains and destroys anything and everything around me.
For me, God has more to do with my faith than my religion, God is more of a consistent companion and guide than someone who's just carved in stone and adorned with flowers and who is worshipped every morning and sunset. In fact, had it not be been for this aenoian belief in that Heavenly entity, I doubt if I would have been able to sanely survive the different circumstances and situations that this short lil life has thrown my way. I guess that since my faith has never betrayed me till this day so maybe that is the reason I fail to see why other people can't believe in Him enough.
But then, aren't there too many instances of God being around for us not to accept His existence? And haven't there been enough folklores and tales talking of how someone suffered for lack of devotion to drive the point home? Or are these tales considered mere figments of imagination? I hope not coz I can't imagine a person just striving on and on, without a little bit of feeling that there's someone to take care if things get awfully out of hand.
And mind you, I am not talking of the strong-minded atheists who have a couldn't-care-less kinda attitude, who just go out there and get everything for all its worth, who spend all their lives getting their dues by sheer hard work or luck maybe, but who've seldom felt a need to shiver in anticipation or feel depressed or shed a tear on some unachieved feat. Either they are too powerful or they are too carefree. They might definitely survive but wouldn't they be just a handful?
But what I am seeing is a normal individual with a very normal level of self-confidence, a person who is not going that extra mile without a heart-felt assurance that he would be protected from unforeseen consequences and that he would continue to live with no big loss, in one piece if nothing else, I am talking of a person very much like me, very much like the millions breathing around. A simple belief in the existence of that Supreme power can serve to assuage all pains and miseries, can serve to add that shock-absorber to make things a lil lighter to bear and can give that lil extra push to make the going a lil easier.
Don't many of us feel the same and acknowledge that Divine presence in our lives? I would like to think so.
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